I am really tired today. Leo was up a lot last night, and while he’s been able to catch up on sleep during the daylight hours, I am not so lucky.

When I get this tired, it is harder to be positive about things. I start to question myself. I start to wish I had something besides mothering to call my own. There are so many things I wish I had time for, but I know those things are for the future and not necessarily the present…


Decided to get up and go do something productive while Leo was napping and the other two were out getting groceries. Turned out to be 10 minutes of yoga and 10 minutes of stretch & relaxation with a postnatal workout DVD I got from the library. I feel better now. I’m reminded of an Oprah video with Gwyneth Paltrow and her trainer, Tracy Anderson. Looking at Gwyneth’s body makes me wish my library had a copy of Tracy Anderson’s Post-Pregnancy DVD. Can’t believe its $30 bucks. Hopefully I’ll get started with a workout class at the gym soon.

It’s about bedtime. Looking at this rambling post I’m not sure if I should delete it, or post it. Today was just a regular day. But these are what life is made up of after all. Regardless, I think I’m going to try to make tomorrow better.

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  1. oh – i guess i know how your feel. well, i’m not a mother but i know this kind of tiredness when there might be no way for a positive mind. when the weight of the whole world seems to press down on your shoulders.
    i’m glad you didn’t delete this post. thanks very much for sharing your thoughts here and being so honest. it’s very helpful to see that also other people’s lives aren’t only bright and sunny.
    but i wish you a lot of sunshine and positivity for the next day!
    greetings from germany
    frau s.

  2. I am glad you posted too! We don’t know each other–a friend sent me a link to a post you wrote about breastfeeding when I was considering weaning my daughter several months ago–but I love your blog and have been following Leo’s arrival with great interest. Hang in there and be kind to yourself! You are doing a huge amount of work every single “regular day.”

  3. Emily,

    Have you tried the Interlibrary loan? I’ve used it a couple of times and it worked great. It is free too.

    Hope this helps.


  4. Man, the other night all three of the kids were up at different time and I felt so tired that day. And you’re doing that every night! Wishing you a restful weekend!

  5. Yesterday was terrible! The kids were exhausting, I got no sleep and in turn I felt like a terrible mother that wanted to turn in my two weeks notice and head back to a nine to five job! Somehow the kids sensed this because they gave me the perfect night and morning!!! Annie may be right., the sun will cone out tomorrow! Smiles and cannot wait to pass on a real hug this weekend!

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